LYRICS
Baby, there’s a part of me, that you can’t see, kept under lock and key,
I don’t remember, what’s hidden in there, been hiding for so long, I don’t care,
Don’t like to talk about it, don’t like to admit, just close all the doors and try to forget,
That reaching for stars left me stuck in space, as the weight of the world crushed all of my dreams ...
I swallow ... all my pride,
And try ... to live this lie,
But the days ... keep passing by,
And I, and I ... I’m going, I’m going, I’m going nowhere ...
Baby there’s a part of me, that just won’t sleep, and it’s a tragedy,
I’ve wasted so much time, lost my drive, and when I die who will remember me ...
I swallow ... all my pride,
And try ... to live this lie,
But the days ... keep passing by,
And I, and I ... I’m going, I’m going, I’m going nowhere ...
Remember when we were young and you could pretend to be anyone you wanted,
But there is still a part of me, that can’t accept the reality,
I’m living this way ...
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BEHIND THE SONG
There are people in my life that struggle with addiction. They all have their moments. Highs when everything seems fine, but then … there’s the lows. The moments where their weakness becomes undeniable, and it’s crushing to watch them struggle.
When writing this song, I tried to put myself in their shoes. Trying to understand why they think there is nowhere else to turn. The feeling of dependency on a substance, instead of a person who cares. And despite knowing the consequences of abuse, still making that choice over getting real help.
It’s a "crutch", propping them up. Keeping them from facing their real problems. And the effect it has on them and others in their life, weighs on my conscience.