LYRICS
Give me something to rely on, when it's too hard to bare,
Hate what you do to me, but no one else cares,
I need an escape or, another way to feel safe,
To get myself clean, before it's too late ...
Cause you’ve got a hold on me, I’m better off with you gone,
You make it easy, but I don’t want you to lean on …
I’ll never say … thank you for picking me up …
As long as you're here … I’m stuck using a crutch …
Kept me standing so long I forgot … how to walk alone …
So let me go … let me fall apart all on my own …
It's never quite as simple, as just sobering up,
And letting you find someone else, that you can prey on …
I’m lying in the dirt, say you told me so,
Pull your claws out of me, I don't want you to bleed on …
I’ll never say … thank you for picking me up …
As long as you're here … I’m stuck using a crutch …
Kept me standing so long I forgot … how to walk alone …
So let me go … let me fall apart all on my own …
I know … you think this is help,
But I won’t let you drag me, all the way, to hell …
I’ll never say … thank you for propping me up …
As long as you're here … I’m stuck using a crutch …
Kept me standing so long I forgot … how to walk alone …
So let me go … let me fall apart all on my own …
BEHIND THE SONG
There are people in my life that struggle with addiction. They all have their moments. Highs when everything seems fine, but then … there’s the lows. The moments where their weakness becomes undeniable, and it’s crushing to watch them struggle.
When writing this song, I tried to put myself in their shoes. Trying to understand why they think there is nowhere else to turn. The feeling of dependency on a substance, instead of a person who cares. And despite knowing the consequences of abuse, still making that choice over getting real help.
It’s a "crutch", propping them up. Keeping them from facing their real problems. And the effect it has on them and others in their life, weighs on my conscience.